What Katy Writes

On my sweet sixteenth birthday, I was excited to finally feel like I was growing up, like I was getting out of the morbid years that had been my fourteenth and fifteenth (you should see my diary from those years!) and that I was in my last year of high school, finally feeling like I belonged somewhere and wasn’t floating between friends and work trying to be what people wanted me to be.   I had a lot to look forward to, but one thing that I most certainly wasn’t looking forward to, was getting my Learner’s driver's licence.   So many people ask me why I hate driving, what scares me about it, what is it that makes me sick to my stomach about getting behind the wheel..   Well, here I am going to try and explain how it feels to be petrified of something that is so simple to most other people.   It is also going to be handy to have some point of reference to show others who question my seemingly ridiculous fear as I have never really documented what it is about ...

In one of my recent posts, I talked about a few of the body image issues that I am currently facing, and to be honest have faced my whole life.  I try so hard not to let social conventions of what I should and shouldn't look like bother me but sometimes I just can't help it.  Let's just say I've started to do a lot of my shopping online and I feel myself falling deeper into the dangerous lack of self respect chasm. I have come across a few lovely articles and quotes lately that I think are so wonderful and are how I wish I could view myself.  I'm definitely not trying to sound up myself here, but I think self love is something that we shouldn't be ashamed of.  Sure, there are about a million things I would love to change about myself, but I don't want to become one of those women who are obsessed with their appearance and become ridiculously shallow and can't seem to focus on anything else.  However, in our society, I honestly find that a really challe...

I think my last few posts have made it pretty clear that I am really trying to be an all around happier, more positive person than I have been known to be in the past.  I have also written on here a lot about time and how it seems to simply disappear before I even realise that a day has passed.  I am trying to learn more about the way I structure my days, as it is honestly a blur of routines to me, but I don't want that to be the way I live my life.  This brings me to an important, often-used, often hard to achieve word:  Priorities. For most of my life, school was my priority.  Studying was always number one, but now, I don't have anything that I am studying for, so this frees me up a bit, although occasionally I do wish I was still studying, and I probably will end up studying something in the future, who knows?! When I started work, that became a big priority obviously - so much so that I have nearly made myself very ill trying to prove that I am worthy t...

  I recently wrote about being grateful for the small, every day things in our lives that often get taken for granted.  I've found that applying that to my life has made everything seem so much more positive and I'm going to make sure that gratitude becomes part of my daily routine.  It is so easy to become self pitying when things are tough, when you've had a bad day at work, you're stressed, you're tired and grumpy and just can't be bothered pasting on a smile.  Quite often, this has been me, but I want to work towards changing this and becoming an all round more positive and thankful person.   I don't like to think of myself as negative, but in all honesty, I do tend to look on the bad side of situations and it is definitely not something I like about myself.  In the last few months, I have been really focused on trying to be more positive and focus on what's good in my life rather than the things that I want to change.  I've started...

 I realise that throughout this whole blog, I mention Reid in most every post, but I have never really taken the time to talk about him in depth.  I thought I might take this opportunity to explain some of the many things about him that are special, and just why I love him so much and can't imagine my life without him. Reid and I have been together for almost six years now and have been married for just over six months.  Reid went to school with my best friend Sammy and I always had a crush on him purely based on his looks for a long time.  When I was sixteen, Sammy gave him my number at a party and we started to send each other text messages.  This went on for quite some time and I was smitten from the start.  We met in person in November 2007 and started officially dating on 3rd December after a few ups and downs.  Since that day, I have never looked back. Reid is truly the kindest, most loyal and selfless person I have ever met.  He co...

                                                 I love to write, that's no secret, but I truly find myself lacking in the time.  I have recently joined the online world of Pinterest, which is a huge time waster but still pretty enjoyable to browse.  I have found a few interesting quotes about writing that have really made me think about how important it is to me and that I need to make the time for it otherwise I tend to go a bit crazy.  I have always kept a diary of sorts, but haven't written in mine for probably close to two years.  I started this blog with the intent of throwing myself back into a writing routine but have managed to only write the occasional post.  Well - that is no longer going to be the case!  I'm...

I haven't written here for a long time.  In all honesty I haven't really known where to start. Things have changed, once again, from my last post. While teaching is something that I think I have definitely thought about a lot over the years, I don't think it's time for that right now.  My mind is still so full of doubts and while Reid is incredibly supportive and would be happy for our lives to change, I think I need to be really, really, really sure of what I want to be doing before quitting a full time job and losing a lifestyle that I love. Reid and I have so much that we are planning for.  We want our own home, we want to start a family in the next few years and we want to be able to enjoy our life without being incredibly financially limited.  My job has improved somehwat.  My role has changed slightly and I am finding it much more enjoyable and am not feeling sick every day when my alarm goes off.  I am taking some medication to help wi...