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Happiness, Philosophy and an Uncertain Future.

If there's something that I miss about studying the most, I think it would be the fact that every single assignment, every single reading and every single lecture had the ability to create some kind of philosophical thought in my mind.  I find it fascinating how differently every individual person thinks.  Me?  I'm a chronic over-thinker.  I analyse things to death, wonder what people's body language and facial expressions mean, whether or not there were a lot of full-stops in a text message which could mean someone is mad because of the way the sentences sound, whether or not someone's tone could have possibly been offensive or defensive - the list goes on and it becomes quite ridiculous a lot of the time. Now, while this may not be considered to be inherently philosophical as an idea on its own, the fact that my brain is preoccupied with "thinking" is truly philosophical in itself.  The longing to question everything, whether or not it is warranted, the...

Guest List Rant.

Life can be funny sometimes. In fact, it is often funny all the time, just usually we can't see the joke. Lately I have been so worked up; so stressed about the littlest things and so caught up in planning mine and Reid's wedding, worrying about money and decorations and offending this person and that person, until this morning for some reason, I burst out laughing at the pure craziness of it all. When Reid first proposed to me, I swore to myself that I would enjoy the wedding planning process and I swore to my bridesmaids that I wouldn't be a "Bridezilla" - which is kind of in my highly strung (at times) nature. Our wedding is ultimately coming together beautifully.  We have the ceremony location picked, the reception location picked, I'm paying off my beautiful princess dress, I'm in the midst of organising hair and make-up, planning colours and decorations and have ordered an amazingly tasty cake - so really, it is...

The Only Way to Have a Friend, is to be One - Ralph Waldo Emerson.

I haven't had a chance to write here for a while.  Things have been insanely busy as usual.  Lots of things are happening and a few big changes are in the mix.  My fiance is now working every weekend which is going to take some getting used to.  This weekend alone has given me a lot of thinking time and it's definitely going to be a fairly hard adjustment, but that's life - money makes the world go around unfortunately, especially when we have a wedding coming up in 5 and a half months.   I'm feeling quite pensive at the moment, listening to some new music and spending the day alone seems to do that. Yesterday I caught up with a few friends which was really nice, and truly made me realise how lucky I am to have them in my life.  It's funny how much friendship changes when you leave school.  In fact it's not necessarily the friendships that change, but the people that do, which then consequently impacts on the friendships.  I was lucky ...

Family Matters

Today is the 2nd of September, which means it is my fiance's Birthday. It is also the first Sunday of September, which means it's Father's Day.  Putting these events together culminates in: A Day Spent With Family. I am truly lucky.  My immediate family is made up of 6 individuals (including myself) who in most aspects, couldn't be more different from one another.  My Mum is incredibly generous, kind-hearted and loving.  She goes above and beyond to do anything and everything for her husband, children and grandchildren due to her being the most family-oriented person I know.   My Dad is my rock and is also my favourite person in the world.  He is strong and protective and truly means the world to me -  we have a very special bond due to the fact that when Mum went to work full-time when I was seven, it was just the two of us most of the time.  I've always been a Daddy's girl.  My two...

The Beach Life For Me

People tend to love one of three places the most.  The city, the country or the beach.  For me, it is most definitely the beach.  Yesterday I was in a crappy mood.  I was grumpy and restless and wasn't really sure why; so I grabbed my iPod, put on some shoes and headed down to the beach for a nice long walk.  By the time I got home around 40 minutes later, I was happy and settled again.  As I was walking, I noticed just how much more the beach is than just sand and water.  The water is like a living, breathing organism with constantly changing heart-beats.  Sometimes it is a slow, calm beat - small waves rolling onto the shore and teasing the sand as they slowly retract back to where they belong.  Sometimes it is a slightly faster, more irate beat - bigger waves slapping at the coast with every break, white foam left bubbling in their wake until they too, disappear as the ocean takes another deep breath and pulls them ba...

Change is as good as a holiday (...but even holidays make me nervous)

Change is inevitable.  From the moment you're born, you begin to change and grow and learn - and most of the time, this can be seen as a positive thing.  When I was young, I took change in my stride.  Obviously growing is something I had no control over, neither was the darkening of my hair or the gradual change from hazel to green colouring in my eyes, but once again as I became older, change became something that I would come to dread.  A lot of the time, things changing have resulted in really positive outcomes, but let me tell you, I have fought and struggled (and lost) against many of the things that have culminated in what my life is today.  I had to change schools when I was in grade 5 and I was absolutely terrified (which let's face it, is a pretty normal reaction for a 10 year old child who has created a comfort zone in one school to being moved to an incredibly different school in every sense of the word), but it turned out to b...

Tick-Tock

One of my friends on Facebook posted this picture the other day and brought to my mind something that I have been thinking about for months now: how incredibly fast time disappears and how little I seem to be able to do with a day before it's time for bed! It is now just after 4pm on a Sunday afternoon.  The threat of Monday morning is looming - back to the reality of work: getting up early, trying to squeeze in exercise and housework and cooking until once again it's Friday evening and the unwinding can begin. I never wanted to grow up as a child, and as inevitably I have, I truly understand why.  I loved school.  I loved seeing my friends, I loved most of my classes and I loved the little comfortable bubble that I happily floated in for fourteen years and then the slightly less comfortable, but still a bubble nonetheless, that I floated in during my three years of Uni.  I have been working full-time for almost...