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Happenings ~ 16th June 2019

DOING: Reflecting on the beautiful day I've had with Reid and Isaac.  Isaac seems to be going through something at the minute.  I'm not sure if I can put it down to a growth spurt or something developmental but he's been even more attached to my side than usual.  Wanting lots of cuddles and reassurance and his sleep hasn't been great either (is it ever..??). I'm happily (for the most part) obliging and showering him with affection and relishing these moments that I know won't last forever. I made a real effort to be completely present with him this weekend and not distracted too much by chores/my phone.


HEARING: The song "Borderline" by Florrie that's started playing on my current playlist. I am still obsessed with podcasts.  Current favourites are "The Shrink Next Door", "Live Free Creative" and "Man in the Window". I have a varying range of interests haha.

DRINKING: A lot less wine! My alcohol free week was surprisingly easy. I didn't end up having a wine for nearly two weeks, and now when I do have a drink I am being much more mindful and not drinking just for the sake of it. I think I'm slowly finding a healthier balance thankfully.
Coffee. So much coffee.
Water.
Peppermint tea and green tea.
Kombucha - loving ginger/lemon flavours.

EATING & COOKING: I have been a bit more inspired to cook lately. I've been getting back into roasting big batches of sweet potato, broccoli and onion, drizzled with olive oil, salt and pepper and mixed Italian herbs and having that throughout the week with a tin of tuna for my lunch. I made a huge batch of chicken broth that I made into chicken noodle soup a couple of weeks ago and that lasted well while we were all snuffly with winter colds and Isaac had a chest infection. Other than that just the usual - stir fry, bolognese, pancakes on Sunday mornings or today Reid cooked eggs and bacon with sourdough toast. Isaac is still loving mashed veggies at the minute, I usually do a big batch with potato, sweet potato, broccoli and carrot (he likes them separately too, he's just really into mash right now), and he loves to have a poached egg on top or even have it instead of pasta with bolognese sauce - he also loves a side of corn with most meals. He really is a vegetable loving kid, I'm very lucky there.

WANTING: Isaac to sleep well consistently. We seem to be in a constant battle and the upset it causes both for us and for him leaves me at a loss all the time when I try to figure out what's best. I know he will grow out of it, some kids just don't "sleep well" but far out, it is so tiring in the meantime.


LOOKING: Forward to a mini "glamping" trip I just booked for Reid, Isaac and I. We are going to stay here for a couple of nights in a few weeks, just to get away and do something different while we get through the occasional confines of winter in Tasmania! I think Isaac will love it and be so excited to go on a little holiday - he is still talking about our trip we took to Orford earlier in the year.

DECIDING: Reid and I are constantly trying to figure out things we want to be doing to secure our future in a financial sense. Lots of research and discussion at the minute is going into possibly building again and renting out the house we are in now - but I find all that kind of stuff overwhelming and "risky". I do know risks are a necessity with that kind of thing, I am leaving it in Reid's very capable hands and will see how we go in the next few years...

ENJOYING: Conversations with Isaac. He's so funny and chatty and imaginative.

WATCHING: Reid and I have been watching Vikings and just started season three of Jessica Jones. I've been watching Schitt's Creek when I have the time. It's the perfect "tune out to everything" show. So funny - I am now obsessed with Dan Levy.

READING: I've been reading a lot and I am loving it. I do struggle a bit because I want to read so many books at once depending on my mood haha... I am up to the third book of the Neapolitan Novels by Elena Ferrante (Those Who Leave and Those Who Stay). I am also re-reading Playful Parenting by Lawrence Cohen (best), have started 12 Rules to Life by Jordan Peterson which is great so far. I have also been reading parts here and there of On Writing by Charles Bukowski and The Way of Rest by Jeff Foster. Yeah... I should probably take it one at a time. I possibly just ordered a few more I'm desperate to get into... Isaac's current favourites that we are reading every night before bed are The Gruffalo and No Means No.

BUYING: Stuff I shouldn't be, if you ask Reid... haha. Books, groceries (how expensive are groceries??), I just bought a craft activity box for Isaac on those days we just can't get outside when it's freezing/pouring with rain. I honestly am trying to limit the spending though... although I have been SO generously gifted a piano from some family friends and the transport/tuning costs are not cheap, but really - that's a lifelong investment and never to be seen as money wasted in my opinion!

LOVING: The gym. I am feeling fitter and stronger all the time, even though I get frustrated with my lack of "physical progress" (no impressive before/after photos here - although I think they are incredibly unhealthy anyway - don't get me started...) - I know that's really not the point. I am healthier and making a real effort with my fitness and that can only be a good thing.


CRAVING: I would really love a good roast lamb dinner. With apple crumble and cream for dessert. Yes. That would be excellent.

SAVOURING: Isaac. I kind of answered this already in the "doing" section. I just love watching this little person grow and change and learn so very quickly and as exhausting as it is, I love that he's a Mummy's boy for now. I'm savouring our Wednesdays together more and more as none of this lasts forever.

PLAYING: With trucks! What a shock haha. Isaac's favourite game is still digging in dirt and transporting it somewhere else with his dump truck. He is also loving his swing and wants to be pushed "so high up to the moon Mummy!" (not the sun, the moon for whatever reason), for what feels like hours at a time.

FEELING: I always pause for such a long time before answering this question. I feel grateful, tired, anxious, calm, content, restless - usually all within the same day! Right now, I feel settled. Things feel good and my head is in a decent place which is nice. I am working really hard on self-development/improvement and I'm proud of my progress. Being faced with things I actually do have the capacity to change is both freeing and challenging. But, at least I'm in a place now where I can proudly say I'm trying.


Happenings posts inspired by Heidi

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